On my Way back home

I told you before about all the stuff i will be forced to do this weekend, well it was a more or less normal, I attended that wedding party, I've laughed, I've cried and I haven't felt anything in some times...
This lofe is making me live it without any trust, I can't trust it .
It's making me... Wonder if all the people will be like me unable to identify their feelings, just living because in any way they eere born to live, so practicly they don't have any other choice just living... Woooooow, everybody hurts everybody wants to be the hero, everybody see waht he got never enough to obtain that famous happiness.... Everybody wants to work when he works he becomes that body that havr miney so he just start hoping to have more money... Then having this troubled faked relationships with everyone everyone without any exceptions....
This life is becoming a huge problem for the most of us , i can't trust no one, no one....
There are people believing in those small simple things and that makes you relive that feeling of blind blief once u had got, when you were a little kid... It's making you feel good even just for a second but it's a great feeling....
When the day is cold, when your dreams are all falling at this time you become hating your innocence, yout smile your encouraging words...
I miss my old days, i miss laughing and playing with my cousins... I miss that feeling of having a lot of my brothers who may in any time help you and be the shoukder you cry on in anytime you pick... I miss being kid a lot, I miss being the no fault girl :)
I miss me when I have a lot of dreams to realise .. Ueah I was dreaming that one day I may buy a motocycle for my cousin "youness" yep he was so dear to me... He has that patience with little kids... He used toake us smile and laugh with no reson.... I have the intention to buy a car for my uncle (hhhh) this one i was less confident that i could make it someday.
Now I'm eorking I can't even assure a car foryself, noe my cousin is living his life without any motocucle but a car bought by himself :s
I was so naif and still now, i have a head in the clouds, and this is makes bleed deep inside...
To be continued.......
Nissin

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